A Day in the Life of a (Struggling) Law Student

i’ve been meaning to blog since this morning pa…got a lot of things in my mind.  i wanted to write about surrender.  how good it feels to suddenly stop caring  about an issue one used to feel so strongly about.  but then again, recent events of the day made what i want to write about moot and academic. 

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i dropped by his office after work today and upon seeing him, all my defenses melted.  yuck.  corny.  but true.  i forgot that i’ve been mad.  and it seems like he forgot that we almost had a deadlock in our last series of "negotiations".  he said he missed me then kissed my hand.  i even felt like crying but i stopped myself.  we were in public and had to restrain ourselves emotionally.  (sans no kissing and hugging to that reconciliation scene).  haaay…love.  i can’t understand it.  never could figure it out.

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i read omar’s blog (hi omar!  yup, i’ve read your blog!) and he was rambling about this year’s newly filed impeachment complaint.  i just saw it in the news the other day but i found myself not really caring about it (when i used to be so impassioned about going against that #*&%% president of ours).  have i become apathetic?  has my world revolved only around the bar ops, my academics, portia, work, mike and church? (not necessarily in that order).  am i too busy to even stop and care about events that shape our nation’s history?  i actually feel pretty bad about it…i went to law school mostly because i was nationalistic…i wanted to be one of those "transitional leaders" or agents of change in this nation’s history (as if…taas ng pangarap ko no?).  yet now, i seem to be so involved with myself and my own affairs lang.  what’s happening to me?  this is bad…

I’ve decided to go vegan.  For more than 2 weeks now, I haven’t been eating any red meat.   It has some positive effects…I feel lighter, and some people say I have trimmed down a bit (of course, it’s only been 2 weeks, the effects are very minimal).  Yet I also feel somewhat lethargic - that’s what scrimping on protein can do.  Case in point.  I used to sleep for only 3 hours a night.  But now, I can’t wake up to study in the middle of the night anymore.  Grrrrr…annoying.  I’m getting inefficient. 

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Some stalker person has been texting me.  Asking me if I’m Lorybeth, if I’m a law student…he/she says she won’t bother me na raw.  Yet when I texted back to ask who he/she was and to ask her if there was anything I could help him/her out with.  The stalker dude said it’s about something I value a lot, next to God and my family.  I asked, "is it my studies?"  But of course, I know that he/she (I bet it’s a she) meant Mike. 

What does he/she want?  Why is it that controversial? 

1.  the will i made when i was 12 is null and void according to Art 797 of the Civil Code which states, "Persons of either sex under eighteen years of age cannot make a will"  (well, they can…it’s just that the will won’t be legally recognized)

2.  it’s no joke to be in a relationship.  no matter how lovey-dovey a couple may seem at first, they will always encounter some difficulties in adjusting with each other because of their sheer differences.  but at the end of the day, no matter how difficult things may be, it will always be worth all the struggles as long as the two people involved know and feel that they love each other and are willing to compromise and move towards the same goals.

3.  no offense meant to my guy friends and to my boyfriend, but sometimes, guys could be so dense. 

’nuff said for now.  bwahahahahaha. 

1. ako raw si jean grey. mike’s result says he’s cyclops. eh di bagay kami. hehehe.

***You Are Jean Grey***

Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).
Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!

Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

Which of the X-Men Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whichofthexmenareyouquiz/

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2. i have a type A personality…yeah, yeah, i know this.

***You Have A Type A- Personality***

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn’t rule you.

When it’s playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it’s hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?
http://www.blogthings.com/doyouhaveatypeapersonalityquiz/

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3. naku, sabi na nga ba eh!

***You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish***

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don’t actively fight them.
You’re just you. You don’t try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howboyishorgirlishareyouquiz/

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4. oh no…sobra na ‘to…lalake yata talaga ako

***Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male***

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatgenderisyourbrainquiz/

just like vines, which have to undergo pruning in order to bear fruit, sometimes people and even relationships need to undergo tests and trials to become stronger and to eliminate one or two unnecessary details. this is what i’ve gone through the past 2 weeks…more of like what we’ve gone through.

twas a lesson that’s been learned the hard way…a costly one that almost drained our strength and emotions. it was definitely a struggle to get through that, but good thing is the waters are once more still. it’s true that God won’t give you anything you can’t bear. always, He equips you with strength, wisdom, guidance and everything else needed to withstand a trial. i so thank Him for His mercy. i marvel at how He was/is able to transform even the bad into good.

today, we celebrated our 5th month together and after that “storm”, today felt like a milestone. haha. they say “what won’t break you will make you stronger.” and i think we’re proving that to be true. i’m happy that we’re still together and that we learned a lot about each other. still, i know that we have a long way to go…there are still things to work on but we’ll be taking ‘em one step at a time. we have learned our lessons and we’re praying for His help with the follow through.

i truly thank God for the way He has held mike and me together throughout what we have just been through, and i know he is as thankful as i am too. no relationship is perfect and ours is not an exception. but i’m glad that we understand, complement and love each other. that makes the occassionally rough ride a little less bumpy.

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i’m glad all that is over now. emotional difficulties (a.k.a. lovelife issues) have always been my achilles heel and have never failed to slow down my productivity. thank God that one ended before classes resume.

in 4 days time, i’ll be a law student once again and i’m excited about my subjects this sem. they say 3rd yr is the most difficult one, and i’m bracing myself for it. i just hope & pray that i could be given a slot for corpo law. pls, pls, pls, pls!!!

to all those who gave their comments and sent me friendster messages, well, it’s bitin coz nothing’s been truly resolved yet. and yes, it’s pretty complicated. i’m hoping and praying that things would be fine again. (whatever fine means) i’ll fight everything and anything off if i have to. as for those who are asking how i am, well…i’m fine. but then again, i could be better.

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but now all’s well that ends well. and we’re now okay. i hope it’ll stay this way. well, it better.